A friend and I were talking about fear and trusting God. I have had times of great fear when learning to trust God. I wrote this about 15 years ago – it has been a long and at times, hard journey getting here. And I still don’t trust like I should… but I’m getting there.
The Fear of the Lord
Solomon declared,
“The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge.”
And I do have fear.
Sometimes
to the point of despair.
For I know that nothing happens
without first passing through the Hand of God.
God calls forth the act, directs the act
or He allows the act.
And so I fear – What will be His Will?
My mind and my heart struggle for control
of the emotion.
My heart says “Love”
and my mind says “Sovereignty”
with “sovereignty” being a fearful word.
I’ve seen God act to spare His people
and I’ve also seen Jeremiah thrown
into a well,
And Hosea sent to marry a harlot.
How can such infinite Love
allow such personal tragedy?
And so I fear…
But fear of the Lord
is the beginning of knowledge.
And with knowledge comes wisdom,
and with wisdom comes faith.
And with faith comes assurance
that sovereignty is not a fearful word
but is indeed Love.